six months.

the following blog entry is one that i have struggled to put on here but i think it's necessary.


i left for six months.
when i came back i expected everyone and everything to be exactly the same.
for the past year i have been trying to remember what things were like before i left.
the truth though is that people move on. no one is waiting for you as if you left yesterday.
i've wanted so badly for things to just be the same.
everyone is growing up and their lives are changing.
sometimes i feel as if i'm only watching them grow, as if i'm not actually changing.
i know i've changed though and it scares the hell out of me.

it scares me so bad sometimes that i can't breathe.

six months can change your world.
six months will make you learn.
six months never come back.


six months always made the difference.