A Fear of Love

I really like you but I'm afraid you don't feel the same way. Although it may sound a bit melancholy, it seems too good to be true for someone of your stature to think of me in such a breathtaking way. Alas you tell me that you like me and that you can't wait to get to know me. So I trust your every word and hope for a future worth mentioning.

I really like you but I'm afraid you'll let me down. Although it may sound a bit foreshadowed to assume that things will get detrimental, I only know what I know and that the one before you left me in the cold. You mustn't judge me for what I am hesitant of.

I really like you but I'm afraid of loss. Although if may sound silly to fret on experiencing an important piece of life. To lose is to have something disappear, something that could mean the world to one person. To not have at all means to never have to lose.

A wise man once told me not to be afraid. Fear is what's keeping the world from being a place filled with love.

The Future

Recently I've started thinking about the past year of my life and where I've been. When I step back and look at everything that has happened, I eventually start to make sense of it. Sometimes the sense I find isn't what I want but the truth is that what has happened, has all ready happened. The future is what I have control of.

Today I made a decision. I've been struggling for months and months to make this decision and although I still have plenty of time to rethink and change my mind, I truly believe that this choice I have made is completely necessary.

Going back to college this fall for journalism is my goal. I am confident in what I want to study and I enjoy it as well. When I return to college I will be closer to home and be more mature than the first time around. Growing up has forced me to understand how money works and I know I will put my college loans to better use.

Fear is the only thing standing in the way of where I want to go in my lifetime. I've let fear take away so much from me so far. I won't let it happen anymore. I can't let it happen.